When I was in kindergarten...

I just found out this photo after my childhood friend tagged me in Facebook. Haha. We were only 6 years old and we were all so cute!!! I seriously miss those days so much. Life without any stress =)

I am the third one who sitting in the first row =)

Outing with my girls!

Saturday I had an outing with my girls. Wan Ring and Denise. Finally we met after so loooong. Haha. Had our lunch in Sushi King and stayed there until 5pm unexpectedly! We had really too much stories to update so we did not realize the time passed. And surprisingly Wan Ring brought her bf there also!! Wow. This was the first time I see him. He really made a good impression. Good looking. Smart. Good manner. Haha. Well. He is really great, wan ring!! Good taste! =)

Three of us...

I was so unnatural =3

Wan Ring and her bf, Yan wu! Nice to meet you!!

After that, we went to take a photo as we did not take a proper photo for ages already. Also, Denise lost our photo coz she kena robbed. And we think it is really a good time for us to update our photo in the wallet. So we did it!!! Haha.

I miss you girls.

Outing with my old bestie

I went out with Paul last Thursday. Early in the morning, he already reached my house while I was still bathing. My family helped me to layan him first and served him a "ba chang" for breakfast. Haha.

We went City Square later for lunch and movie. We had our lunch in a Japanese restaurant. I forgot what is the name of the restaurant already. Pikachu? Lol. And we watched Sex and the city 2!! Haha. The movie was quite nice especially when they were in Abu Dhabi! But I fall asleep in the middle and Paul

kept complaining about it. Lol. I am so sorry. I was really too tired. I slept quite late the day before =3. Btw, I am seriously fall in love to Abu Dhabi after watching this movie!!! Haha.

At night, we went back to my house again and we took dinner together in my house =)

My birthday present given by Paul =)

A perfume!!

Mars Jacob - Daisy!!! This was one which I wanted for so long!!! Thanks Paul!! You know me well! Thank you so much =)

This perfume makes my table looks so classy now! Haha

Internship from Ernst & Young!

I think it is time to announce that I got internship from Ernst & Young!!! Hooray! Monday early morning, I went thereto get my offer letter. I followed Wei Liem's car to his company as his company is quite near to mine. But the traffic was too jam which makes us really suffer a lot! However, I am still lucky as I could enjoy the view outside when he was busy driving and cursing! Haha. After we reached his company, Siemens, I took a cab to my company and it costs me 10 bucks! =(

It was only830am and I don't think Ernst Young is already opened so I went to find Zi Kang first as his hostel was near there also. We had a breakfast in MacDonald then he teman'ed me there. =)

Anyway, I felt so stressed at the moment I walked into the building. Everybody was busy with their stuff as if we were inexistence. And they looked really serious. None of them really looked at us =(

Ernst and Young!!!

Zi Kang and me while waiting for the letter. Wrong angle =3

Inside the office...

I am so excited to work there. When people asked me about my ambition, I always told them that I wish to work as an OL in such a big building. I always hoped I could work in a buiding which is full of professionals who are in formal and heels, having a lot of files on their hand and in the mean time were talking to their clients through the phone. It looks so cool to me. And now, my dream comes true!!! =) I just can't believe that I am so lucky!

I am back!

I am going back JB today. Hooray!!! I can't wait to meet my family and my girls, especially Wan Ring and Denise!!! For Wan ring and denise, you girls faster fix a time for us to meet up as I can only stay until 25th June! Miss you girls so much. Muacks.

Gasoline

Sunday night after I came back from Midvalley, I went to Sunway Pyramid immediately with Xiu Bao. It was so tiring for me but I still went as I promised her. Haha. We had a dinner in Gasoline. The food was really normal. Actually from my point of view, the food really sucks. Maybe it was because I chose the wrong food =3 Anyway, the environment is quite nice. I kinda enjoy it =)

While waiting for food....

My bestie forever =)

Eating my XO fried rice...

Xue Qi's birthday

Sunday was Xue Qi's birthday. So me, Zi Kang, Kah hui and Xue Qi planned to go Midvalley for a lunch. Seow Wei was in KL also but sadly she could not make it due to IMU's open day.

Anyway, this was my first time going there by bus alone. Haha. The lunch supposed to be started at 1pm but I only reached there at 120pm. I thought I was late but ended up I was the earliet. Malaysia timing! Haha. Xue Qi and Kah Hui really showed the Malaysian's character well as they only reached there at about 3pm. But we forgave them since Xue Qi was the birthday gal! =)

Xue Qi and Kah Hui. Still sweet =)

Zi Kang and me.

When I was bored watching drama on saturday night, Jia Jun called me out to yum cha. Thank god. Or else I would be bored to death. Haha. We then ended up playing pool in Asia Cafe there =)

Anyway, I am really not good in playing this. We played four rounds but I never won ><

Haha. Pretty not?

Jerry Yan

My second year finally ended and my holidays started!!! Yay! However I already felt bored although this is only the second week of my holidays. Staying at home watching drama everyday really makes me sick. Argh! I kinda miss the school time now. Haha.

By the way, I already finished the drama "down with love". The story line is just normal but I really enjoy it because of the main actor Jerry Yen. Awww he is really handsome =)

Jerry Yan. Handsome right? I love him so much.

Audit =(

I just took my audit exam yesterday. Sigh. The question came out from past year and tutorial bulat bulat but I don't really remember. I only read through once. I am going to fail my audit I think. I know la... my friends sure will say I bullshit la... always say like that... But this time it is kinda different. I know my preparation is really not enough =( Only slept three hours one day before the audit exam which made my brain really cannot function at that time! I just wrote everything in my brain but I think some of my answer does not make sense. I just vommited everything only no matter it makes sense or not. Sigh. And I think I lose all the 20 marks for the post balance sheet event. I never expect that it will come out my god! I just write whatever I remember... disclose... adjust whatever. I was really too sad last night so I directly went sleep until Jun Ho called me. Then I only wake up and went library. But I was still feeling too sad about audit last night. So I did not study much. Sigh. What is done is done. I know. Now I can only let go and move on to the next subject, CF!!!!!!

Back to the time before exam, Xiu Bao called me asking me wanna take breakfast together or not. Of course I rejected her as I really have no time to eat. I did not plan to eat already because at that time I still got a lot of past year paper not covered yet. But the sweetest thing is that she took away a lunch (mixed rice and one hundred plus) for me. She said she know I sure won't eat one. Haha. So sweet! Save my time!! Somemore she took all my favourite dishes. Know me well enuf. Haha. I was touched again by her. Thank you so much babe!!! But dun treat me so well la. I owed you too much!!! =)

My 20th birthday

As my 20th birthday kena my final exam this time, I seriously did not expect anything. But it surprisingly turned out to be the sweetest =)

I was not excited for my birthday previously. Everyone was busy preparing for exam so I did not dare to suggest and ask them as I know this behaviour would be very selfish. So I did not ask anyone to celebrate my birthday with me. And I also haven finished preparing at that time. So I already planned to celebrate it silently and bought a big present for myself after the final exam to compensate myself XD

When the clock strucked 12am, guess where was I? Haha. I was in my school's library. No life right!! Haha. I know. But I had no choice. It was unreasonable for me to give up my preparation and go relax. I could not afford to lose the time since I haven't finished preparaing yet.

At that time, I was busy doing my consolidated account until my friend suddenly came in with my favourite drink and said "Happy Birthday" to me. Then I looked at the clock, I only noticed that it was 12am already. Haha. But he is really sweet. Thanks again =)

I studied with my friend until 330 in the morning and I went to sleep directly when I reach home. I totall forgot about it is my birthday. To me, it is not a big day for me but just a normal day.

Then, the next morning, Mei Yee specially came down from Cheras just for me. However, we took our lunch in my favourite restaurant here, JoJo (I suggest one) as we wanted something quick because at that time, we were already running out of time. Although there is no any nice restaurant, cake etc, but I still appreciate it =)

Then, I went to library again to revise my work. After that, Xiu Bao suddenly called me and said she could not have dinner with me as she had assignment to do. I was so sad and kinda disappointed actually as she is my best friend ma. After receiving her call, I told CJ and Mei Yee about this. Then they all like pitying me like that, said nvm la, we teman you. Haha. Actually I am okay also even if I have to take dinner alone as no matter what, Xiu Bao stil cannot make it. But after an hour, Xiu Bao called me and said she can make it but she could not afford to any expensive restaurant. So at the end, I suggested KFC. So Mei Yee fetched me to KFC. I thought it was just a simple dinner with Xiu Bao only but she suddenly said Wee Vian joining also. haha. I never expected because I thought Wee Vian will be busy preparing her exam. Anyway, I was so happy when I know Wee Vian joining also.

When I was waiting for my friend to fetch me from KFC back to the school, suddenly without any expectation....

Wee Vian asked me to look behind and...

Oh my god. I saw Xiu Bao holding a cake and they were singing birthday song for me...

I was stunned. I never expected they will buy cake because how can 3 person finish a cake?

At the end, we only finished one quarter, gave another one quarter to the staff. And I gave the other half my cake to CJ as my refrigerator was full. Haha.

My birthday cake =)

Wee Vian and me

Xiu Bao =)

So I thought everything come to an end already. However, when I came back from school at 330am again....

When I opened my room's door, I was shocked as my room suddenly become so clean. Then I saw a note sticking on my wall.

Haha. So I started finding my present... present... present...

I do not know why. I got the sense that the thing will be in my cupborad. So I directly open it...

Teng Teng... I found it. =)

There is a note inside the box...

Hawai is my room's name =)

Hooray. It is my birthday present!!! A hair dryer!!

Bingo, she guessed right!! My hair dryer has problem for a long time already but I just did not bear to buy...

She even stick my name on the hair dryer, so nice =)

Then, there are another present inside the box also... OPI nail polish!!! Given by her also.. My god! I love her so much! Somemore it is my favourite colour!!! Pink!!!

And this is the third one...

in which she write many things inside, which really touched me..

Thank you so much Xiu Bao. Love. You are really a wonderful friend and an important friend to me, always.. The rest i will tell her myself =)

This exam is important to me.

This exam is really important to me. Because if I can maintain my first class, then next year I do not need to work so hard to get the first class. If I can get a first class in my degree, I do not need to payback my PTPTN loan. Instead, the loan will be converted to a scholarship. So meaning if I get a first class, I can get 50k as a reward. Sigh. But it seems so hard for me.

Besides, I also wanna prove myself that I can still focus in my studies and get a good result no matter how sucks my life is. I just wanna prove myself that I won't get distracted by all those things. But I already lose 50% confidence in this exam. Not because that I get distracted, but bad time management. I don't have much time to prepare this exam well. And I think, as long as my life won't turn worse anymore, I still can take it =)

Anyway, today is Mother's day. And I kinda miss my mummy. Happy Mother's day, mummy. And I love you =)

Stop complaining...

I usually like to stick a lot of notes on my wall to motivate me. Don't waste parent's money, study hard, first class etc. Yesterday, my landlord came to my room and she read all the notes that I sticked on the wall. So paiseh. But she said she like one of the notes that I sticked very much, which is "stop complanning, just do it!!!" Lol. I sticked this note long time ago already when someone asked me to set 3 principles for myself. Haha. This is one of my 3 principles. But I just realised that I didn't really do it. I only did it for the first few days after I sticked it on the wall. Sigh. I realised that I complained almost every single day, complained all the things that I am not satisfied to. I complained everytime when the bus came too early, when the bus came too late, when the food was not nice, when I don't like somebody's character, when I can't finish my revison, etc. It is just because I want all the thing to follow my rules, which is so self-central. I did not really tolerate with other people. Lol. So now I really wanna stop myself from complaining. Haha. If anyone hear me complaining again, just ask me to shut up please XD

And I am so stressed out now. 3 more days to exam but my revision is not ready yet. I am getting panic already. And I can't really forgive myself for being so lazy, and wasting time in daydreaming those I know that they will never ever happen in my life... =(

I wanna complain my life again. No life at all. Haha. But I kept telling myself, Penny, do you think you are the only one who is suffering. U think you are the onely one tired of studying, tired of everything?? Aww come on. Everyone is suffering. Don't you see that there are so many UWE students in 24/7 every day and night. They study longer than you somemore... =(

So now what I wanna do is just to continue my studies without complaning anything.

I need more time!

Exam is coming soon and I seriously have no life at all. Every night after dinner, I will go lakeside campus 24/7 there to revise my work until 3 or 4 o clock in the morning. Argh. I am so freaking tired now and I dunno I still can stand for how many days more. God, can you please let the time go slower a little bit, so that I do not need to rush my revision every single day. Argh. Many people keep asking me what I want for my birthday present. Sigh. What I want now is just giving me one more day before my exam, or ask UWE to delay the exam for one day. Anyway, I know it is impossible so I shouldn't expect it since I know the outcome is going to disappoint me )=

Ps: Paul, thank you for the perfume in advance, and enjoy your trip =)

Mei Yee was so random. She suddenly called me last night and asked me to go clubbing with her, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend's friends. Haha. But I turned her down lo. Time to get serious already since next week is our final exam. But she is still so RELAX even though exam is really approaching. I hope I can as relax as her. Sigh.

I wake up very early today just for a nice breakfast with Xiu Bao. Haha. We went to market there and take away all the food we like and ate at my house. Haha. We ate damn damn alot!!! Dun be shock! We ate nasi lemak, roti canai, bao, dim sum, carrot cake and apam balik... Haha. We demand too much but we could not really finish it, ended up a surplus. Haha.

Sigh. I was quite emo just now. I just angry with myself because I did not study at ALL today. I felt like slapping myself. Sigh. Maybe because I seriously studied too much last week, which already beyond my limit. I cannot continue anymore. And i have a headache nowadays. I cannot remember how many panadol I ate already in this 2 weeks. It is so unhealthy. But I cannot afford to rest, even just for a day. Anyway, when I am almost depress already, I suddenly received a friend's call. He asked me to go out study together in school later at 10pm. Lol. People already almost wanna sleep at this time, but we start our revision at this time. Btw, thank god for saving me from all the distraction. Haha.

And I just realised that I am a typical Taurus girl... Bad temper but seldom display (unless you are close with me), don't like any changes, don't like to guess, stubborn enough, prefer freedom, violent, and caring =) And that's me, haha.

Happy labour day

Happy labour day everyone!! =)

My mummy just called me and asked me whether I got go out or not since today is labour day. Sigh. But sadly my answer is no. I have to stuck in my room studying for the whole day. But it is still okay for me. I am not that desperate to go out this weekend because I seriously fall in love to study. Haha. It is sense of satisfaction when I can overcome the difficulties =)

Anyway, for those who are working, happy labour day and enjoy your holiday!

Life

I am so tired. Tired of studying, tired of guessing, tired of everything.

But I know that I can't do anything. What else can I do? There are so many things in this world which is out of my control. Sigh. At the first place, I will always try my best to make it the best. But if I really can't control the situation, I can only accept it, let go and move on. And this is called life.

Emo

I accidentally listened to some piano songs which I never listen for ages. Suddenly, all the memories flow back to me.

These were the songs that I liked to listen and played last time. Everytimes I played those songs, he always sat beside me, listening carefully to every note I played and gave me a smile which really made me melted everytime I finished playing the songs. I actually almost forget the feeling when I was with him. But after I listened to the songs, I had a flash back to the times, recalled to all the memories between me and him. His eyes, his smiles and his everything are really so hard for me to forget. Awww. I am so emo right now.

Boy, you never know how much I loved you. I never love someone else more than I loved you. But you really disappointed me. Because of you, I lose the ability to love. I never dare to be the real me, be true to others, never dare to love a person because you made me know how sad it was when I was being abandoned by the one that I loved. You made me know that I must have the courage to let it go before I decide to pick up the thing. That's why I never dare to pick up a single thing after that because I wondered whether I can really let it go if the same thing happens again. But sorry boy, you are no longer in my mind. I just miss the time, not you!

One day you will realise you lose a diamond when you were too busy collecting stones XD

The guy is so rude!

Just now, on my way back after I took away my dinner, I saw a couple quarreling in front of my house. I can't really hear what they are fighting about, but two of them were so fierce to each other.

The guy kept shouting to the girl. The girl was so hurt and I saw her crying but the guy continued shouting at her, and i heard the girl said, "how can you use that to threaten me?" something like that. Eventually, the girl cannot stand it anymore and she shouted back at the guy also. But you know what the guy did!!?? He slapped her!!!! WTF! The guys was so rude! The girl cried out loud. And the girl was still there trying to explain! WTH!! What was she thinking? She still want the guy back? Or else why she wanna explain to the guy? And obviously, the guy refused to listen to her explanation. If I were the girl, I would just slap the guy back and leave. How can she accept her boyfriend shouting at her in the public, and even slap her. My god! There is not only one guy in this world girl! Sigh. You deserve someone better. And I heard the guy saying "you go back yourself!" something like that, then the girl really wanted to leave. But the guy suddenly snatched the phone from her, and threating to throw the phone to the middle of the road. So the girl could not contact her friend to come and fetch her back. The guy is so lame!!!

I think I am so luckly because I never meet this kind of guy in my life yet! Thank god!

Stress!!!

I feel so stress now!!! Argh. It is because:

1. FINAL exam is really coming. But I haven't finish my preparation. I am seriouly running out of time. I have to cover 4 more modules in just 2 weeks! Help!
2. My progress is so slow! I actually started long time ago because I dun wanna do last minute again but I end up running out of time again!
3. I can't really focus on my study although I keep looking at my lecture notes. I was being distracted by tv, laptop, bed etc.
4. I'm aiming first class for my second year result. I know it is hard, especially for me because I never pay attention in the class. But I really wanna get it please. If I can't get first class in this year, next year will be even harder for me to get it.

Sigh. My mind is only full of exam and study right now. Nothing else. First Class is the only thing I want now. So friends, just bear with me nowadays...I know I will make you guys very stress, but I just can't help it. Hehe. Can anyone teach me how to reduce stress!! I am getting depress!

Friday after class, Chun Jui, Mei Yee and me went to the career fair in MPH. We went to many booth, Price Waterhouse, E & Y, Sunway group etc, but obviously we could not get any benefit from this visit. Because all of them told us the same thing: "Please send us your resume, we will look through it". But when we told them that we already submitted our resume in March, they said they were not sure and MAYBE are still in the shortlisting process. Sigh. And all of them told us that result is very important, this made me so much nervous about my coming exam again.

After that, Mei Yee fetched me and CJ to SS15 to take our lunch. Haha. We took our lunch in Pork Noodle there. CJ's friend also joined us.

Then, Mei Yee fetched me back to Lakeside Campus again because I wanted do my revision there. I just cannot do it at home. Bed, computer, television can really distract me. Sigh. I studied there with Visha until 530pm only. I planned to study until 10pm, but I was really not comfortable with the formal wear, so I gave up my plan.

At night, Jun Ho suddenly called me at 11pm something and asked me to go out yuncha since he was nearby. So random. And at that time I just finished bathing and my hair was so wet. Paiseh to go out. So I let him wait downstair until I finished drying my hair. Paiseh.

I am really so stressed out now. Exam is really approaching but my progress is damn slow. My god. And my CF lecture notes are so useless. No much information. I have to read the text book or else I dunno how to do my tutorial. And the text book is so thick. Sigh. Sometimes I really feel like tearing my Arnold.

Lazy to go class but Sunway Pyramid!

Wednesday, I was really too tired. I slept from 830pm until 930am the next day. 13 hours!! I was so shocked when I woke up at 930am. I wasted one night for not studying anything. Sigh. Anyway, I was too lazy to go class. Since I already woke up so late, I decided to skip all my class yesterday. Haha.

I had a nice breakfast in Macdonald. Then Xiu Bao came over my place to study together with me. At around 4pm, we went to Sunway Pyramid because I urgently need a formal wear.

We took our dinnner in a Korean Restaurant there, but I forgot what is the name of the restaurant already.

My spicy chicken bla bla bla.

Korean Rice Cake.

Her Bibimbap.

However, the food quite disappointed me. I am really picky in Korean food after I worked in the Korean Restaurant during my last year holidays.

And I just realised that I really love to eat extra spicy food when I am stressed out or emo. Lol. It is so weird but I really felt much better everytime I ate that =3